Welcome to the tea party
My brother in law suggested I try becoming a tattoo artist apprentice.. Since I apparently have skill in drawing and such. Not sure how that’s going to work out or even play out. Might try it though. Worth a shot. Not much else going for me currently.
On another note; found a Alaskan Malamute breeder in Tahoe. So awesome, breeds dogs like I think is good. Treats them well, no kennels. Everything is perfect. One dog; $1500, owwies! Not having a job hurts a lot when you can’t afford the shit you need and want. Haha
I’ve applied to every place near my home. Since I hate buses and don’t own a car. Buses gross me out, yuck. Not sure what else I’m gonna do about that.
AVON is being a little shit, trying to set that up is proving to be a serious pain in my f’ing ass.
People I know are annoying the shit out of me. -.-;
JOHANNA’S TATTOO FUND
I HAVE STARTED A DONATION FUND FOR POOR COLLEGE SELF! I HAVE A BEAUTIFUL TATTOO THAT IS NEARLY COMPLETE AND ONLY NEEDS SHADING AND COLORING!! SOMEHOW I KEEP LOSING MY MONEY TO OTHER THINGS! SO I DECIDED TO SET THIS UP FOR MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY TO HELP OUT AND ALSO SO THAT THE MONEY GOES SOMEONE SAFE AND WONT BE TOUCHED ONLY FOR MY TATTOO’S!!!
THANK YOU IF YOU DONATE! IT DOESN’T HAVE TO BE A CERTAIN AMOUNT AND I WILL POST WHERE THE BOTTLE IS AT EVERY TIME THERE IS A NEW DONATOR!!!
Passion is your middle name
Key Traits: approachable, enthusiastic, energetic, open-minded, positive, animated You are a positive spirit bundled with insatiable enthusiasm. You aren’t hesitant about diving head first into new adventures and relationships. Although you might find yourself surrounded by people similar to you, you are about as open-minded as can be. You love to absorb yourself into different cuisines, different sights, different cultures and even different opinions. That’s why, when seeking a romantic partner it’s more important to you that they possess the same enthusiasm for life and love, rather than the same stance on a political proposition. There are few things you find more attractive and appealing than meeting that special someone who can hold his or her own in a debate AND go adventuring with you.
just what the song title says… Don’t Let Me Get Me..
Life altering desicions
It’s amazing how some movies can bring tears from you, simply because it’s showing you something that hits straight to your heart. Not in the way of, “Oh no, that poor person”. But, in the way of, “I understand.. I don’t want that anymore”. I’m growing to dislike the kind of people I attract. I want everything in my life to improve. And the first step is to stop indulging the ones who only serve to hurt me.
It’s time for me to truly pay attention to myself and to the things that hurt me. I deserve better in this life, I am worthy of better. I am intelligent, I do have talent and potential. I am beautiful and I am completely worthy.. I just need to keep believing that. I need to stop letting people bring me down and brainwash me into a pathetic mess.
It’s time to end my misery and bring about a moment of happiness. It’s time to get a decent nights rest without nightmares. It’s time to clean and keep things clean, to better myself and keep myself healthy. To stop lingering in the past and with the people who do no good for me. Time to stop being manipulated and twisted into a pretzel because someone wants more from me that I just cannot do.
I need my own life, I need to stop taking care of others while I ignore myself. It’s time to notice me and take control of my life, my wants and desires. I need to do this for myself.
Time to take the collar off. Learn to live. Stop being owned.
I don’t think life can ever be simple. If it could, I’m pretty myself and my family would be happy.
Then again, I have a feeling once my sister, my bro, my niece, and I move out together.. we’ll be slightly more happier with our lives. We’ll be somewhere we want, doing things we hopefully enjoy.
Yet, there are people in my life who have an irritating pattern of behavior with me. Even though I wish things will improve, and that things will go remotely blissfully.. I am forever standing corrected and bound to the vicious reality that people don’t change very well.
Last night was such a horrible experience.. Trying to say something and screwing up so horribly… Maybe it’s just not time yet? Well, what is the right time, then?
