Life altering desicions
It’s amazing how some movies can bring tears from you, simply because it’s showing you something that hits straight to your heart. Not in the way of, “Oh no, that poor person”. But, in the way of, “I understand.. I don’t want that anymore”. I’m growing to dislike the kind of people I attract. I want everything in my life to improve. And the first step is to stop indulging the ones who only serve to hurt me.
It’s time for me to truly pay attention to myself and to the things that hurt me. I deserve better in this life, I am worthy of better. I am intelligent, I do have talent and potential. I am beautiful and I am completely worthy.. I just need to keep believing that. I need to stop letting people bring me down and brainwash me into a pathetic mess.
It’s time to end my misery and bring about a moment of happiness. It’s time to get a decent nights rest without nightmares. It’s time to clean and keep things clean, to better myself and keep myself healthy. To stop lingering in the past and with the people who do no good for me. Time to stop being manipulated and twisted into a pretzel because someone wants more from me that I just cannot do.
I need my own life, I need to stop taking care of others while I ignore myself. It’s time to notice me and take control of my life, my wants and desires. I need to do this for myself.
Time to take the collar off. Learn to live. Stop being owned.
